I've been seeing a lot of stuff recently about depression. It's weird because the more depressed I'm getting the more I'm seeing it.
I'm really in a bad spot. I just wanted to say something somewhere. I've already decided that this is kinda my venting place where I can put some of that negativity I try to keep out of the fandom. I'm not a negative person and don't like sharing bad parts of my life, but things are really bad for me. I'm going to try and find medical help now because it's effecting me more than it ever has before and I'm scared. I don't want to be suicidal but I'm starting to lose all my self worth and I don't want to end up in the same situation I fought so hard to break free of years ago....
I'm scared. So scared. I do what everyone does. Put on a happy face and go about my life, I don't want those I interact with daily to know anything is wrong. I don't know why I hide it. Thankfully I have a meeting with my boss tomorrow. Hopefully we can work something out. Until then I'm just going to do my best to make it through the rest of the day/night.
I'm really in a bad spot. I just wanted to say something somewhere. I've already decided that this is kinda my venting place where I can put some of that negativity I try to keep out of the fandom. I'm not a negative person and don't like sharing bad parts of my life, but things are really bad for me. I'm going to try and find medical help now because it's effecting me more than it ever has before and I'm scared. I don't want to be suicidal but I'm starting to lose all my self worth and I don't want to end up in the same situation I fought so hard to break free of years ago....
I'm scared. So scared. I do what everyone does. Put on a happy face and go about my life, I don't want those I interact with daily to know anything is wrong. I don't know why I hide it. Thankfully I have a meeting with my boss tomorrow. Hopefully we can work something out. Until then I'm just going to do my best to make it through the rest of the day/night.