Why does it matter so much to me that he made Plat? I don't even know. All I know is I feel hurt. I'm losing him and I can't help but lose myself. I've been trying to hard to stay afloat. Floundering I've managed to keep my head above the water, but my arms are getting tired. I've lost the want to keeps swimming. What then keeps me afloat? Probably my fear. More like cowardice. I want nothing more than to be done with all of this, never have to deal with it again, but I can't. So I just cry, and cry. Maybe one day I'll finally just cry myself into a deep sleep.
Patch Where Sun Shines. Did you save me just for this? Taunted me with your beautiful warmth and happy feelings just so I could survive to this moment? Do you believe, as I do, that I deserve every bit of the darkness that eats away at my soul? How much longer until the darkness takes over. I hope it's not much longer.
No one is here to read this. I'm thankful for that. I can express myself without having someone else be hurt by the darkness that has consumed me. It's oddly relaxing, talking to no one. It's scary, knowing no one is there. No one is coming to save me. He is gone. I'm drowning.
Darkness. There's a light at the end of the tunnel. maybe he is there, the Patch Where Sun Shines. Just on the other end. I try to reach for, I try to take a step, but the darkness weighs me down. I no longer have the strength to move closer. The darkness gets colder, my body chills. Eventually I adjust to the cold as my body grows numb. I think I hear voices through the darkness. Other caught in its web. I push the voices out, taking comfort in the numbness I feel.
Pain. Odd that I can still feel pain. My body has grown so cold, so numb. Every bite the darkness takes out of my soul the pain grows more. I curl up to try and shield myself from the threats, but it has already burrowed deep inside.
There is no escape now.
Patch Where Sun Shines. Did you save me just for this? Taunted me with your beautiful warmth and happy feelings just so I could survive to this moment? Do you believe, as I do, that I deserve every bit of the darkness that eats away at my soul? How much longer until the darkness takes over. I hope it's not much longer.
No one is here to read this. I'm thankful for that. I can express myself without having someone else be hurt by the darkness that has consumed me. It's oddly relaxing, talking to no one. It's scary, knowing no one is there. No one is coming to save me. He is gone. I'm drowning.
Darkness. There's a light at the end of the tunnel. maybe he is there, the Patch Where Sun Shines. Just on the other end. I try to reach for, I try to take a step, but the darkness weighs me down. I no longer have the strength to move closer. The darkness gets colder, my body chills. Eventually I adjust to the cold as my body grows numb. I think I hear voices through the darkness. Other caught in its web. I push the voices out, taking comfort in the numbness I feel.
Pain. Odd that I can still feel pain. My body has grown so cold, so numb. Every bite the darkness takes out of my soul the pain grows more. I curl up to try and shield myself from the threats, but it has already burrowed deep inside.
There is no escape now.